| Abstrakt: |
A diary extends your life. Turning to a page in the past can for me trigger an abreaction in which I find myself re-experiencing the horrors of war or feeling the emptiness and desolation of bereavement. I have occasionally experienced for the first time emotions I had repressed long ago, even traumas of the past which go back to pre-natal experiences, birth and infancy. (The infansof infancy means not speaking, and these memories, the most traumatic, are pre-verbal). They are recalled as nightmares later in life. Much of what I am doing when studying the pages of the past is, in fact, like primal integration. I find myself constantly being taken back to the very beginning. |
